Frustrating things in Pregnancy -Sorry Baby....

I really dont want to write or post this topi in my happy pregnancy journal, but life is the mixture of both good and bad things. We need to think only about good things. 

I pray God that may my baby have happiness and positive all the time. 

There are few things which made me cry a lot and so tensed. I apologize to my baby that if my emotional feelings and physical stress pass to him/her.

·         Sorry baby , Its my mistake and I am the reason for traveling to India, I know I was so tired in the flight journey. Most tired times where when we were walking in JFK airport and when we were traveling in the bus in Doha airport.

·         Sorry baby, its my mistake that we had to go for visa stamping and Krishna didn’t get the stamping on Jan 18^th. Sorry for crying, worrying, tension etc.

·         Sorry baby, its my mistake that I travelled to Knr and I was so tierd during the car journey and when car was jumping a lot.

·         Sorry baby, when I went to Businessman Movie and the sound system was lot.

·         Sorry baby, When I had to leave your papa and I had to come to USA alone with athaya.

·         Sorry baby, When I got so frustrated and irritated when we had discussion about food cooking etc

·         Sorry baby when I ate so much of spice and food which I didn’t like and not eating healthy food for you.Sorry for not taking good care of food and giving you best from me

·         Sorry baby , for doing stuff like bending working, walking etc and physically getting strained

·         Sorry baby when I was out of control on the day when I tried to clean and put the books in the cardboard box and when atthaya told something and when I was so irritated and shouted on her.

·         Sorry baby, when we had a biggggg discussion on akkaya’s saree

·         Sorry baby, when I was out of control and frustrated when disccsion happened on blouses and mom giving saree to Krishna vallu and that becoming a big issue which me made me cry for continuely 3 days. I know I am sorry becoz instead of ignoring all thoese and thinking about you I am still spoiling my mind and thinking about the same

·         Sorry baby, for the diabetes in my body and me getting tensed becoz of that

·         Sorry baby, for remembering your papa a lot and feeling bad and getting tensed and also for crying sometimes

      Sorry for getting tensed about Krishna's Visa transfer and our life settlement once after he comes back to USA on H4 visa 

      Sorry baby when I discussed about stuff from India o USA for the new born baby and for baalentha ‘ with athaya and peddhayi and I told about akkaya vall atha and athaya responded ‘vine kodallu unte anni thevacchu’ etc etc ,this made me pissed off….

·         Sorry baby, for telling to your papa about all the nonsence things which happened at home when your papa is not here and for crying a looootttt and saying metal things like , I want the time to pass soon, I don’t have much interest on my life now, once the Baby delivery is done, that’s what I want, I don’t have interest in anything, etc etc ,I am really sorry for saying all thoese things and sorry for the badest mood

·         Sorry baby when I tried to hold my tears when chitti told about mamay that he said something bad to mom about the money and coming to USA etc. Sorry about that .

·         Sorry for feeling bad and irritated on the day when we all went to TTD temple and 0.5 ppl came and argued to give money and my mood was completely off when I saw lot of beggers on the road.

·         Also sorry , for all the physical pains which I have gone through like cold, crampings etc.

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